Changes in Life

I used to be a person who believes that we should lead our life the way we want it to be. We change things to what we want it to be, we fight for what we want. Everything was so well planned and executed until I met someone who totally changed my perspective to life. Some things in life will not be yours even if you fight till your last breath. I have learn that what’s yours will be yours, it’s a matter of time, and what’s not, will never is, no matter how hard you tried. It seems that I have gained a new vision that can see things that I can't see in the past.

I heard from someone that we are crafted by the people around us - our family, friends, relatives and even strangers that we met once a while. It won’t be surprised that people who make a great change in your life will be a stranger instead of someone close to you. How is it possible that someone could change the whole crafting instantly? This is something that I wouldn't believe before I met one. It's not really a bad idea to meet someone like this. It is nearly impossible to change something that you strongly believe in to something else, but it's still possible.

Changing oneself doesn't mean that you have lost yourself, you just upgraded to another version - A better one, that's why it's called an upgrade. Some people may choose to downgrade themselves after they met this someone. Afterall, we do have a choice, it will depends on what we want to choose. Yes, it's always easier said then done, but if you don't do it, nothing will be done.

I have now learned how to lead a life that happens naturally and the ability to adapt to any kind of changes in life. Remember one thing, nothing will be permanent or forever. All the things we had now will change anytime, we will just have to adjust or leave it in order to move on. Do not take life for granted.

As time goes by, I have started to realise that I do not choose the way I lead my life, but my life choose the way it want me to lead instead.

"And I know what I have to do now.. I gotta keep breathing.. Because tomorrow the sun will rise..Who knows what the tide could bring?" - From the movie "Cast Away"

New Year, New Start, New Challenges

Finally, I thought that I am done with 2006, but not really. When moving into 2007, the first thing in my mind was "what have I done in 2006 and what is going to happen in 2007?". I should be feeling really great for the arrival of new year but I am NOT! What's happening to me? Somewhere or some place is wrong.

In 2006, it wasn't a great year for me but things are picking up at the second half of the year, and it stopped. When I passed the New Year, I have this feeling of lost. Maybe it's because that I know what is going to happen in 2007 - everything is going to stay as it is, not much changes if I just remain as what I am doing now. It’s so predictable! I have this perception that every year has to be better than the one before or has to be different at least. I am not going to waste my 2007, I need a brand new year, a different one, a better one.

I have been struggling for days just thinking of what I wanted to do to improve my 2007. Time does not wait for anyone, while I am struggling, I started to realise that things are changing around me. Nice colleagues at work are leaving for individual reason. Infact, I think that friends are my main drive for work. Not money Not work, why? Doesn’t mean that I don’t like money or work, it’s just that it is the must important factor for me. I never really think of the 'why' part until I feel my drive is gone.

When you think back, we spent most of our working hours just on getting work done. How much time do we talk to colleagues at work, of course I don’t mean by talking about working subject. This may be what most of us missed, 'busy' is always the excuse we used when we were asked. It all depends on your priority. I will prefer to build a strong relationship compare to a strong work. It will be great if we can have both, we may need to balance in some way. I believe at the end of the day, if we happen to change job, the work will stays with the company but relationship move with you. Do you agree?